Before Hitting Rock Bottom
Once, when my life seemed more pathetic than usual, I had the notion that I would buy a drum, a bongo, a conga, something, and join a drum circle. Riding my bike around downtown San Jose in search of these drum circles, I saw the kinds of scrappy, dirty losers who bang in these drum circles, and I thought, 'what was I thinking'? I was an even bigger loser for wanting to join them to make my life less pathetic. It was that point I realized my life didn't seem pathetic, it WAS pathetic.